I'm updating becuase I am bored

Hello peeps!

I'm down with a slight fever and a flu. I'm not taking any meds because I'm not sure which meds I should take, either ones for my so called disease or just over the counter ones, but anyways I might go to the clinic if by tomorrow I am not feeling any better. I blame the field trip to Terengganu and Pahang earlier last week that was done on the hottest week ever. We were sampling from 9 am till 9 pm. Penat. However, the field trip was quite fun, the after math of the field trip is not funlah tapi *running nose*

The last two weeks have been super stressful. Firstly, because of the PTDnya exam, the news to sit for the exam could have not come on a worse week than it was. It came on the week after my biweekly meeting with my co-supervisor, and on that biweekly meeting I received the most work ever compare to previous meetings which mean the week after kerja memang banyak baru nak start. Adding to that was another meeting with MOSTI people. So yeah 2 minggu tido tak lena memikirkan tido tanpa mengulang kaji pelajaran untuk exam tersebut..huahua. Some might get the privileged to have a day off on Friday to study but certainly not us since Friday is lab meeting day. Nasib baik exam was not as hard I thought it would be, wat penat je risau 2 minggu. Right after the exam straight away went to Malaysia-Liverpoolnya game, and I was actually half awake during the game sebab the night before stay up untuk study kan :) 3-6, it was entertaining. During the game I was like, kesiannya pemain-pemain Liverpool ni kena pergi on tour and entertain their fans, macam artist on tour for concert. And Apai was like 'Berjuta-juta kot sayang diorang kena bayar, tak perlu kesian.'

And secondly, mestilah about all those new assignments that need to be done and all the methods that need to be tested. Being underpaid ni, susah jugaklah nak wat kerja dengna rajinnya, hehe. but it is not their fault really, we are the one who should have registered ourselves as a  student and obtain our own scholarship. Once I got all my methodology to work - tissue culture, DNA extraction, RNA extraction and proteomics- to actually produce bands and spots that I want, then I'll register myself. I'm just glad I like what I am doing now despite the fact that I am being under paid for a year or so but in the long, if things go as plan, I wouldn't dare to complain. My research and I, we are seriously in a never ending love hate relationship...ahaha..but most of the time I love it :) I usually dont like it when I'm feeling and look unwell, because I cant do much and I feel useless and letting down people, I dont like to let down people, I dont like to let down myself.

And people would ask what would I do if I passed the PTD exam, which I dont have full confidence that I will, anyways..when the result is out, baru fikir, tapi I adelah berangan-angan nak kerja kt Italy kan, huahuahua, well no, it was just a thought, tak berangan-angan dengan lamanya pun, I dont like uncertainties.

And just finish gmail chat dengna Apai about yesterday game! I love the fact that he would always ask me what do I think about the game, although my comments are very amateurish, he is very supportive..hehe. I wish he could be back home before the game this Thursday.

This post is so boring I know. I dont have the mood to post about fun and interesting things because tomorrow is already Monday and Apai is away.

Cause you're the apple to my pie..

...You're the straw to my berry
You're the smoke to my high
And you're the one I wanna marry

Perfect Two - Auburn

Most of the girls I know, how bright they may be or how great the start of their career are, occasionally will say, 'You know, all I really want to be is a housewife/surirumah, taking care of the house, cook, have a wonderful relationship with the husband and be most awesome ever mother..'

I? I'm like most of the girls I know, I think..

Why?

“Dont ask what the world needs. Ask what makes you come alive, and go do it. Because what the world needs is people who have come alive." Howard Thurman

Once in a blue moon

I have Apai for a month onshore, yeay! And it's during the wedding time plak tu, so yeah no more kesedihan-sedihan di hujung minggu. Hujung minggu jelah, hari minggu macam kurang masa skit untuk rasa rindu.

Anyways, remember what Abraham Lincoln said in the previous post? Well yeah, I learn to not judge people too quickly. From now on, tak nak jadi too much of a drama queen dah ah and unprofessionally post things on the blog plak tu. It's easy to blame others but not yourself no? Aku macam bersyukur aku sedar akan hakikat tersebut, ade orang yang tak sedar-sedar.

During the weekend, I met someone and somehow that someone with just one sentence convince me to no longer have doubts on the path that I already have chosen and started. I miss the time we spent together discussing his crazy philosophy of life. I need to be self-motivated, waiting for this one sentence booster from someone else is tiringlah.

Never confuse a single defeat with a final defeat. -F. Scott Fitzgerald

Why?

Why can't I be in a lab as the one that I was in the States? I dont really miss the exclusiveness of having our own equipments, the technology and the convenience that the lab have to offer, but I do miss the lab group attitude and also the feeling of 'I am safe in this lab'.

Malaysian attitude at times can really made me go 'ARE YOU FREAKING KIDDING ME?!', well maybe not all but some of the people that I have to deal with everyday. And I'm afraid that one day, I will become like them.WHAT A NIGHTMARE. Patience have it limits. These people are really bringing out the darkest side of me.

But I guess,
I dont like the man. I must get to know him better. - Abraham Lincoln